My little night owl

It seems like forever since I've posted. I got caught in the whirlwind of the holidays, it was a good holiday overall. Although to be honest, both DH and I wished that Isaac could have been there with us. It's so bitter sweet, as ever mother who moves on after a loss must feel, that we wouldn't have this baby if we had Isaac. But we both ache and long for Isaac to be with us during these special times. It sort of felt empty, although sort of didn't. We both bought presents and exchanged them for this baby. We also bought an angel for Isaac. He'll always be with us.

Tomorrow, we are painting the nursery. I'm so excited. That's the best xmas present of all, in my opinion. My mom and I are going to register while DH and dad paint the room. Pretty soon, it should look much closer to a nursery than the old "sports" paraphernalia room that it was. DH was sad to put all his junk away, but I've never been so happy to see it go!

In pregnancy news, I can officially no longer see my coochie. There isn't much room for me to bend over and I'm pretty uncomfortable while I'm sitting. I've gained 12 pounds and the belly is changing every day. It's weird. It's getting bigger as the clock ticks, I swear. I definately look pregnant now, rather than just chubbers. Sort of nice, actually. We had the 24 week appointment yesterday, everything was normal. Heartbeat fine, blood pressure fine, pulse fine, etc. These non-US appointments are sort of boring. I guess next time I'll have the one hour glucose test done at 28 weeks. They are no longer treating me as high risk, as the complications we had last time are not present this time. I just hope we get to have one more US before the pg is over. The little guy is a wiggle worm in there, DH can feel his kicks from the outside. I think this is going to be a big baby. DH and I are both big people, as far as our frame size goes. Hopefully healthy, that's all I care about. It seems like the kid falls asleep all day long and then wakes up right after dinner, then he's at it all night long until I wake up at 7. I sure hope he figures out his days and nights before he arrives in this world. I am NOT a night owl....hmmm.

Okay, I'm off to buy a glider. I'm so excited. This is all starting to seem real.

20w 5d

Yesterday was the landmark - 20w 5d...that is the point that we lost Isaac. We have passed that point, I wish I could breathe a little easier now. Tomorrow will be 21 weeks...we're registering for gifts, signing up for baby classes, working on the nursery. I don't know, part of me just feels like I'm playing pretend. I'm fearful to be optimistic....this kid deserves a little optimism, right? It all just seems so real, I mean it KNOW it's real (all too well). I guess I'm just afraid to get too attached, like anything can go wrong any time (which it can). It's just weird...I just want to be the happy, fearless pregnant woman. That couldn't be further from the truth.

On a fun note, we were at the men's basketball game of the university where DH works last night and this baby was going crazy. It was a really close game and both sets of fans were really loud, the cheerleaders were loud, and of course the game was loud. I guess it just made him want to squirm...maybe we have a basketball player inside. Who knows?

Boy Wonder

No time to really post right now...I've become a sucky blogger. Between not having a computer at my fingertips all day long and being tired/sick/etc. with pregnancy, blogging has gone by the wayside. Not that I don't enjoy it or that I don't think about the other bloggers out there and how they're doing - I just don't have the same time to do it that I used to.

We DID have the Level II US on Thursday - all is clear. Healthy baby boy inside, all measurements were good. He has long legs (like his daddy) and seems to be pretty content in there. Such a good feeling to know that all is well in there. I'm feeling him move so much more now too, amazing what difference a few days can make.

So all is well from this lousy blogger. Hope you're all doing well. More soon, promise.