Monday, November 07, 2005

New Territory

It seems I have reached a new stage of my "healing" process...people are now feeling more comfortable asking me about what exactly happened. I sort of enjoy the new found freedom to talk about the child that everyone was afraid to ask about for so long. I think of him all the time, to talk about him isn't hard for me. But I've noticed it's hard for others to hear. Several people have cried while I was talking to them, while my tear ducts are nearly dry. I'm okay with that, let them be uncomfortable for a while.

We still haven't told anyone about this pregnancy. It's getting hard to hide, as I'm in maternity clothes. I don't really look pregnant just yet, mostly I look fat. We have our big US on December 1. If we get the green light, we'll tell everyone after that. Part of me can't wait to enjoy and share this happiness with everyone. So far, we've only told my mom and Bryan's dad. While they were overjoyed, I want to share the news with everyone. I just hope that all is well in there and we don't have to face the same music we did last time.

I had the quad screen done and the second stage of the NT-fold test last week. I'm thinking we'll get our results today. Keep your fingers crossed and say a silent prayer for us. Gotta run for now.

1 comment:

Catherine said...

Fingers crossed.