Back from the abyss

I've had a computer virus at work and haven't been able to get on the computer. I'm not sure what the problem was, but at one point I logged on here and the virus had come into this site. It had links from words from my posts to weird websites. It was strange. But I think we got that all tidied up now.

Vixanne - Thanks for the comment about my chart. I had another temp jump today, I'm not sure whether to blame it on what's going on inside or the fact that we need to turn on the AC. I'm so afraid to open the windows because I think it's going to make my temps drop. That's probably stupid, but I feel like this is a science experiment and I need to increase my reliability. I must be precise in all of my measurements. I don't really "feel" pregnant. I've been super unnecessarily tired...that's about all. I'm starving right now. But that's probably because I went on a run this morning and only ate a grapefruit for breakfast. See, that's the problem with possible pg because you can blame any symptom on something else or read into things that aren't symptoms. Ugh. So frustrating. I just wish that I were in control and could get pregnant now. Vixanne - I know you're sending vibes my way. You want company, I can completely understand.

My mood has been better lately. I've been spending less time at work....which definately helps my mood. They have announced that I'm officially leaving to the whole community. Sort of nice because now the pressure is off. Also sort of frustrating because it's smacking me in the face that I'm not going to be employed here in about 6 weeks. I'm trying not to freak out about how we're going to pay for everything. It all seems so weird. It's like a surreal life. I'm looking around me at the office I've had for seven years and it's hard to tell what is mine and what belongs to the school. My office is like a second home - hence the reason why I'm leaving. I spend way too much time here.

My garden is coming along splendidly. I'm going to take some pics to post on here for all of you who garden to see. My mom has been coming up every week and we have been tackling a flower bed each week. We're trying to do everything right by laying down weed blocker paper stuff, then topsoil, then mulch, etc. So far, so good. I bought some peonies and rhododendrons this week for one bed. My mom has brought a lot of stuff from her garden. I think working in the garden is therapeutic. I enjoy my time outside and I also love the progress that I make. It allows me time to think about Isaac all day long and also about the possiblity of another baby.

Okay, I need to get to work. Will post more later. Let me know what you think of my FF chart...